A Fan for the Flame
It is no secret, I have written about it many times, over the past year finding the space within myself to write and post here has been a challenge, a struggle really. Up until recently I just couldn’t put my finger on why, what changed, from where did this struggle arise? Then a month or two ago it came in rushing into me, like the first light the bright warm sun peeking out behind a cloud on a dreary cool overcast day, warming up everything it touches. The realization that up until now, most everything I was writing was coming purely from a place of self, my ego. As most of us would, its very human, I liked the idea of people reading my writing, that felt good from an ego standpoint, thus it drove creativity. If I am truly honest with myself, that is reason this blog even exists to begin with. But as I have become more aware that that voice in my head is not really me, it’s part of me, but there is so much more, that the writing was simply not representative of who I am, and thus it has left me searching for a creative voice.
My life is a journey, up until the recent past, like most of us, was purely tied up in the mind, and this personality called Joshua, the name I have taken here in this three-dimensional world, what he believes he is and is not. This journey is more than that now, there is new awareness to what I really am, what each of us are and where we come from, and what my purpose is here for as long as this flicker of conscious energy inhabits this spacesuit, we call the human form, remains lit.
From here on out, we are going in a new direction around here, a direction that is in line with my purpose in this life, that purpose is to help others find the little ember of conscious light that is deep inside them, to be the catalyst to help others rekindle the fire of that ember into a glowing flame of conscious light, to fan the flame. There can be no word to describe this thing, but catalyst is the really the best word I have found to describe what I now know, it is not a perfect word, but is as close as I have come to describing what I now remember. I want to be clear, it is not my purpose to convince you of what you are, it’s not my purpose to tell you what you are, it is also not my purpose to tell anyone how to do it, that can’t be done, each person must find that path on their own, in their journey and their time, and no doubt that some of you reading this are not ready to find it. My role here is simply to fan the flame, do my absolute best to put it all in words that do not exist, in order to describe something beyond the material world of words and language, to be forgiveness and to hold the space open for others to find their own path.
There is certain level of joy and freedom that comes with this understanding, but also the gravity of what I am putting out into the universe. I know that many people will simply not understand, those still fully captured by the three dimensional illusion, the one we call the “real world”, those people will think I have lost my mind, but I have come to terms with that, but It was a process to get here. Finally, I realized that is only my mind judging it, just as they might judge me. My purpose has nothing to do with them, and fulfilling it has nothing to do with how many readers make their way to this blog, but rather by the single individual that reads these words and fully considers the weight of the questions I might pose. In doing so maybe they then find that little ember within themselves and begin to experience the warm bright light that will ultimately emerge. A complete vibrational shift, and I will be here waiting to welcome that individual to the real “real world”.
With that in mind, I will leave you with this.
Who are you? Who are you really? If someone asked you, would you say, “I am (insert your name here).”
Here in this reality, my name is Joshua, but that is just a name for the spacesuit, the personality, the body, the face, which is riding on a spaceship, planet Earth, speeding through universe at 490,000 mph. But I am much than that, as are you, but who and what am I really? The truth can be challenging to accept, it challenges the illusion of the “real world”, I am the conscious energy of the universe, the light of universe, that thing that makes all this so.
So, I will ask you again, who are you really?
