La Medicina
In the moments that have past since, the question that keeps arising for me is how do I put this all in words, but I have decided that I must trust that I will be guided in doing so, as the need to make it so, put it into words, seems clear to me. As we walk around in the reality of our illusion of this life, it may seem that we are completely disconnected from the essence of our spiritual reality, the collective mind and soul from which we arrive here in this earthly form, but nothing could be further from the truth, in fact we are closer to that reality than we realize, it is in and all around us, flowing through us, there is no possible way to separate us from it, just as you can’t separate the mind from the body, because we are it. As I laid out the words below on the page, something came over me, something profound, feeling is not the right word, more of an energy wave, a vibration of sorts, my whole body was shaking, suppose that means I was doing something right, anyway, hope you enjoy and receive from this whatever it is you are seeking…
I began this journey of awakening two years ago, it began with deep mind management work and emotional ownership, and through that process, plant medicine found me, and it changed my life forever, it called me in, it helped me let go of the things that were holding me in the past, the pain, the fear, the lies of the self, and now, after it help me transform into a clean energy being of light, into a clean vessel I continue to work on and expand each moment of each day, the medicine continues to call, apparently it is not done with me yet, but now in a different way, in service of its important work. This past weekend I had the honor and privilege to serve in ceremony, to bring my essence to a scared place, a responsibility that I do not take lightly, to hold open a space of love and consciousness for others to do their healing work. And in that experience, I was lucky enough to snatch a peak into and somehow touch the collective mind of humanity, by holding the space of consciousness open long enough to create huge healing medicine, so big and powerful that its energetic vibration reverberated through the collective mind of our existence and across the universe. Some how my task here is give you a glimpse into that experience, seems like a tall order to be sure, but I will do my best. What you will read below is that glimpse into the said account, in as much detail my mind can recall.
The late evening of November 8th 2025, into the wee hours of the following day…
There hung in the air a certain known truth that seemed to be universally understood before we even began, that in this second night of ceremony the medicine was going to be powerful, while some of us made mention of it to each other, putting it out into the ether of the universe, there seemed to be a collective understanding, those words found response in a slight smirk and bright wide eyes, and for many of us the medicine could be felt, even before we drank our cup of Ayahuasca. Even with that, I am fairly certain nobody fully comprehended what was ahead of us as we began our journey into this second night of plant medicine.
The medicine came on fast and strong, the dark energy that had taken refuge and piled up over years of unconscious life, began to materialize into the sacred place, It creeps up slowly at first, then comes hard and fast all at once, souls in pain, searching for release, their reason for making the journey to this place, looking for that release, and the medicine began opening the door to make just that thing a reality. Repressed pain and suffering come out in same way they go in, as pain and suffering, but this time to the bottom of a purge bucket, to be released and expelled forever. As I did my work within my consciousness to hold open the space to allow for the medicine to do its thing, there was a noticing you might say, of a darkness hanging over the space, it sort of hangs in the air, like early morning fog, casting a grey shadow of sadness across every soul, those of us who have already done this work, already having done our share of purging of our life’s accumulated poison at some point in the past, use every ounce of our energy and our power to hold a space of love, of caring, of forgiveness, because darkness has no power over these forces, but it will try to convince you otherwise, and it works hard to do so, to pull you from the truth of your consciousness, it is quite easy to fall into despair, if you drop your guard, it will bring down the pain upon you, and you can quickly forget the truth that courses through your consciousness of the light and love.
As I sit here and write these words, I can’t help but recall the despair, profound sadness, the hopelessness, the screams, the cries for help, the desire to not be there anymore, with one participant saying to himself, “just let go already motherfucker”, in those painful moments, you just want it all to go away, the feeling sets in that the whole universe is collapsing onto you, with all its infinite time and space, all seems lost and hopeless, when you give your trust to the medicine, you must face yourself, you must face your pain, all the karma you have created in this life and past lives, the medicine is going to take its pound of flesh as an offering for the healing, there is no cheating it, you can’t lie your way out of it, there is no hiding from it, there is no where to go, and for many, this is the first time in their lives they had to face all of this, to look at themselves and their lives square in the eye and live in it for as long as required, long enough for the message to be received and their soul to give it up and surrender. For those who know Star Trek, in the midst of medicine, it’s sort of like the Borg Collective, “resistance is futile”, the only choice is to surrender, to let go of who you thought you were, to all the poison you have been collecting and carrying around with names such as, hate, guilt, grudges, judgement, fear, amongst others.
Make no mistake, this is a beautiful thing, on its surface it could be judged as nothing of the sort, but it is that sort of thinking that brings one to the point of this needed release to begin with. The process of healing requires sacrifice, it is not easy, this is not something someone does for a good time, it’s the path of hard work, but work that is rewarded in a new transformational existence. A cleaning of the vessel, the energy that is being released and cleared, opens more space and consciousness for the light, for each soul to remember their true essence, creating an energetic force so powerful that the sacred ceremonial space cannot contain it. After a while the energy builds to a tipping point, the whole room begins to vibrate, an oscillation of three-dimensional reality, and then into a portal to another dimension, set into motion by the creation of the so called god frequency by an incredibly powerful woman, glowing in purplish violet hues, a vibration bubble immerges from the center of the room, creating an imaginary of beings in rhythmic vibration, such that they appear to be multiple silhouettes stacked horizontally, moving across the room and taking up the physical space of ten people, but as one form, as the energy continues to build, the frequency of the vibration is audible and physical, it can be felt on and in and throughout the entirety of my being, in the background the pain and suffering continues, but broken up now by the energy forces of vibration itself, and my focus remains in my power and the knowing of the truth, holding the space open to love and the true essence of this human existence. At this point we are longer human, not in form anyway, only vibrating orbs of energy and light, the entirely of the room is glowing in ball of light force so powerful and pure, it breaks through the boundaries of our human experience and through the portal to another dimension, a dimension where we all exist as one collective consciousness that is the energy back of all things. As the power of our creation vibrated through the collective mind, it altered the collective consciousness for all time, it was then downloaded into the consciousness of souls connected to it, creating a sort of energetic data connection, causing all sorts of strange and unique things to come forth. The random text message from a person you cut cord with long ago, or the message it was time to pass on from this life into the next, or simply a “just checking in” message from someone that loves us just because somehow they felt compelled at that moment, or an unusual surge in the traffic on this blog in the hours that followed, focused almost exclusively on the various pieces I have written about my plant medicine experiences. There are no coincidences in this experience of human life, only things we don’t have the capacity understand yet or may never understand. Just because we don’t have that capacity and may never, doesn’t make them any less real than the something we can see and touch, what we have coined as “reality” is simply an illusion, the truth is we are spiritual beings living in a spiritual system, it’s so called “reality” that is illusory.
In that moment, you realize how close we are to this dimension of the collective consciousness, a reconnection to the unlimited potential we possess, all we must do is become aware of the illusion we live in, but it does everything in its power to capture our interest and consciousness, to pull us away from this truth and keep us in the dream. This beautiful process of release that involves confronting the darkness, feeling pain and suffering is part of this experience of life. You can’t have light without dark, nor joy without knowing pain, they only exist in relation to each other, just like everything else in this reality, the yin and yang. We are all meant to experience pain and suffering along with joy and love, the lesson in all of this, work each moment to stay in your consciousness, feel the pain and suffering as it arises during our journey in this life rather than distracting ourselves in unconscious behaviors, and burying it inside our being, as it is the poison that makes us sick, anxious, and living without joy.
As a final reflection, I want to appreciate all the souls that where present in the space, together we confronted darkness, we created a scared space of healing, we used our collective power and understanding of the truth to awaken souls suffering in the illusion of this reality. Together we created Grande Medicina, so big it punched a hole in three-dimensional reality and forever changed the one universal mind, the collective mind of consciousness.
To each and every soul that came together to perform such a feat, I love each one of you, now and forever, together we created something important and beautiful. I gave each you all that I had to give and know that each of you received the exact medicine you needed for this stage of your journey, these are truths for me. While all the answers you came seeking may not be clear in the moment, if you stay on the path, always peeling away layers of darkness to revel the light underneath, the medicine will continue to work through you and for you, and the answers you seek will find their way to you.
This experience of giving for me, serving others, allowed me to receive the final piece I had been seeking, without even knowing I was, the piece that would allow my spiritual being to close the loop as to why I was called to Plant Medicine to begin with. My journey has always been about love, big LOVE, not small love, primarily self-love, but also recognizing profound love within others, It was that way right from the start. This time the medicine showed me the true essence of love of another being, that is the big LOVE referred too previously, that there are souls walking amongst us that hold a special key of sorts, that key somehow unlocks parts of our soul we had no idea existed, and in that there is no reason to be afraid, no reason to hide it, no reason to fear being hurt by it, because the true essence of love has no expectations, no need to possess, it needs nothing in return, it simply lives within us, and it remains ours forever. Nothing can take it away unless we allow it to be taken. The medicine seemingly wiped away and cleansed all the conditioned ideas and thoughts about what I believed love was or is supposed to look like, and as I sit here today, I am experiencing the true essence of love for the first time in my life. I could go on and on here, its a knowing that is quite indescribable despite my best efforts to do so, and there is whole lot more to this story, but I think I will keep that just for myself and those I love.
I will leave you with this, LOVE yourself and LOVE others with reckless abandon. I promise, you can’t make a mistake or mess it up. No soul leaves this human existence wishing it had loved less…
“The Magic you are looking for is in the work you are avoiding.” - Unknown
Joshua
P.S. - With all this recent activity and interest here about plant medicine, thought I would give some links to a couple of other things written about my experiences and journey with La Medicina.
Plateau – Ceremonial Journeys to the Spiritual Plane
And if you find yourself having been called, you will find no better group of people to embark on your journey with than all the beautiful souls of Chakrana in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico.
